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Being nice to people for the sake of not getting in a fight makes me a hypocrite? I guess so (no, no one told me so). But I'm sick of it because it's full of crap in this world, and they abuse of your 'kindness'.
Note1: we are all hypocrites. We would kill each other otherwise. Therefore I don't like this word at all.
Note2: I don't know what exactly triggered this, but lately most people irk me. And I feel like beating the crap out of them, they don't know shit, and because they're either shallow or.. I can't even find a good word in English. How can you be so fucking egoist, and don't think about others? Whether you know them or not.
I'll get over it, because they are dear to me, the people.
I don't betray people, when I care about them I really do, and I like doing things for people that seem nice if I can, without anything in return, but till they take it for granted (when it gets to this, I don't like them that much anymore anyway).
I can get over my stupid ways of seeing life. But no, I'm not that nice as some people think, I'm distant and cold at least half of the time. Just because I'm being nice doesn't mean I like you oh so much (I think someone with a brain can notice the difference), and you may think I'm an idiot. And I can't lie about my feelings, maybe I'll hide them, but that's something else. I accuse the ones that play with feelings the most. I know it's hard to know what you want sometimes, but just shut up if that's the case.
I do have a problem, yes, I prefer letting people think whatever they want, because I have phobia of getting in a fight. I feel like darkness surrounds me when that happens. This is my fault.
And I don't give a crap if everyone finds out how I feel, and think I'm being full of myself. If they don't get it, what's the use of being nice to each other.
Note1: we are all hypocrites. We would kill each other otherwise. Therefore I don't like this word at all.
Note2: I don't know what exactly triggered this, but lately most people irk me. And I feel like beating the crap out of them, they don't know shit, and because they're either shallow or.. I can't even find a good word in English. How can you be so fucking egoist, and don't think about others? Whether you know them or not.
I'll get over it, because they are dear to me, the people.
I don't betray people, when I care about them I really do, and I like doing things for people that seem nice if I can, without anything in return, but till they take it for granted (when it gets to this, I don't like them that much anymore anyway).
I can get over my stupid ways of seeing life. But no, I'm not that nice as some people think, I'm distant and cold at least half of the time. Just because I'm being nice doesn't mean I like you oh so much (I think someone with a brain can notice the difference), and you may think I'm an idiot. And I can't lie about my feelings, maybe I'll hide them, but that's something else. I accuse the ones that play with feelings the most. I know it's hard to know what you want sometimes, but just shut up if that's the case.
I do have a problem, yes, I prefer letting people think whatever they want, because I have phobia of getting in a fight. I feel like darkness surrounds me when that happens. This is my fault.
And I don't give a crap if everyone finds out how I feel, and think I'm being full of myself. If they don't get it, what's the use of being nice to each other.
Feeling ^: 
bitchy
bitchySp34k
pleased
I genuinly don't know
Busy as Hell
drained
sad
sleepy
Angry and Sick